So many people fear love because of past broken hearts. Sending me into my wilderness was watching my daughter take her last breath after birthing her home alone. The man I loved with my heart and soul couldn't take me to the hospital because he was someplace "sexing" my friend. Birthing through the wilderness, darkness gave me comfort as I began to grow into the light. 10yrs later I finally feel free to love. The past will not control my future. If I can love again, anybody can. Trust and see, it's a beautiful space to be in love with self again!
Some of us have a sense of pride that forces us into this place; our pride won't even allow us to admit to ourselves that correction is needed. Some of us have lived in a certain state of mind that has passed down from generation to generation; and they don't believe that there's anything wrong with their thinking process. As I've been challenged on more than one occasion because of my labeling folks as "scripture quoter's"; it is proven through lack of submission that I'm basically on point.
(i.e. Ro. 12:2 Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind...............) How many times have you heard someone quote this scripture? I've heard it so many times I could scream! Especially when it comes out of the mouth of a person that continues to do the same thing, the same way; only adding a new scripture along the way.
There's a place in the love center of our brains that remains in darkness until we go inside and breathe light(truth). Each day in my own meditations, I'm exposed to yet another dark corner that has not been exposed to light. Considering the power and total capacity of the entire brain, this no longer surprises me. Why not? Because I over stand that I am a genetic being evolved from ancestors that made it to this place through the trans-Atlantic slave trade. Even the pain from relationships in just the past 5 years have a in-direct connection to one of my ancestors. My mind sometimes thinks very deep, so I'll get back to my train of thought.
As human beings, we are designed to be forever evolving, inside out. From the organs inside of our body's to the hair, skin and nails outside of our bodies. This process involves constant purging. Unless your life has been peaches and cream from the time you exited the birth canal, to where you stand as an adult today. There will be many times and opportunities for you to purge and renew your mind. The key is not to fight the process. Embrace it freely and celebrate the ugliest and most painful energies that come to the surface. This allows correction and restoration to the mind and heart. Hiding in the midst of denial only pushes those issues deeper into the darkness of the love center in your brain. If the power of love is shadowed or even covered with the darkness of our issues; even our words of love will be diluted and will give the tell-tell signs.
The first revelation I received walking into my wilderness was that I had been taught a boat load of lies while living in the midst of a boat load of hypocrites. This brought me my first and most powerful breakthrough into accepting the light. I was shown that the truth would visit me in the wee hours of the night; slicing and dicing through my heart; removing lies, filth and sorrow. After all, if a building burns down, we must clean the trash and rubble before we can build again. Today I challenge you; when the "trash and rubble" from life begin to breakthrough, don't fight to keep it or pick it up to re-install it. Sift through thoroughly in a determined, focused search for the lessons, blessings and those things that can be corrected and restored and let the rest of the garbage go!
